EDD

My EDD have come and gone for both my angels.  I think the days leading up to them were the worst.  That and having a baby born on each of the days :(.  They are friends and I am happy for them but it hurst knowing I should have a 13 month old and a 2 week old.  I have good days and bad days just like anyone else would.  Its still hard because I want to talk about them.  I want people to know what an impact they made on my life even for the short time they were here.  I also know that it hurts.  And sometimes I just wish there was an easy way to make the hurt go away.  I wish I could just poof be better.  Sometimes when I get frustrated with the kids I think "this is why they were taken from me".  But I know that isn't true.  I just have less patience lately.  I need to work on it.  I feel better now that my EDD's have passed.